I hope you know~

I'm hurting.. I really hope you know that.. I am hurt because of you.. my one and only reason I had.

Next year is the last year we'll 'spend' our time to together.. I promise that I'll cherish every moment with you.. and I'll remember that when I'm not with you anymore. 

I don't know how I would live without you because you're like drug to me... every minute.. every second.. I have to see you.. if not,my heart will hurt.. not because of a major disease.. but because of you.

But,when it comes for me to confront you.. I am never ready to do it.. so do you.. It has been two years and we still remain the same.. like our first met.. my heart's thumping and I can feel yours too.. sometimes when we met I'll look at you.. and sometimes you look at me.. my friends said that everytime we met,you smiled at me? it is true? I hope so.

Well,I knew you never liked me. Proof? Easy. You'll go all mad when it comes things about me. You'll run with an upset look. You didn't like anything comes from me. I'm sorry. I didn't notice that it will affect you. I'm really sorry. It all started because of me right? I knew it. But seriously,I just want to be friends with you. I don't care if you like me or not.. but please? can't you just be my friend? I don't want much.. I just want you to treat like other girls. Talk with them.. when I text you or something you'll answer. That's all.

You know what.. I've been wanting you to talk to me. Just say 'hi' and I'll be the happiest girl alive. These past two years is nothing. Except that this year I see you everyday because of your class is beside my class. So if you want to go recess,you'll pass my class and I'll never fails to look at you. It's like a habit to me. When  you absent,I'll just don't have any mood. You're driving me crazy. 

And every introduction has an ending right? It's been 11 months schooling and we've just passed our final examinations. Now,we have to say goodbye. I'm afraid to say goodbye. I'm worried as time flies. I wonder you'll feel the same. I thought what will happen to me this 6 lonely weeks without you? And when it's time,you passed my class looking so happy. I know that you missed your family a lot since you're staying in hostel and you didn't get the chance to go back home last week because of the examinations? And there you go. I just say my goodbyes in my heart without anyone hearing. But,you give a beautiful scenery before we parted. I see.. you're so happy! You laugh and smile until I can't see you anymore because the building blocked me to see you. YES! I'm so happy because of you. Thanks for making my day. I'll always remember that moment.

p/s : sorry for the grammar mistakes! I'm not that great in English.

pics : The blond one is my fake husband,Kim Jonghyun and the highlight one is my boyfriend,Kim Kibum. :P