28.03.2012
My day started really cheerful. My friends and I had photoshoot for our Bahasa Melayu association. I'm so happy because I can skip Biology class that morning. I had planned with my friends to extend the photoshoot time so that we would not be entering the class. I guess my intention is wrong from the starting of the day. We just finished Yaasin reading and then there's me being cheerful about skipping class.
The shoot went well. I was being hyper and ethusiastic than usual. I laughed here and there. I didn't even sense that something will go wrong after that. I teased my friends. I clearly don't know what's wrong with me that day.
I managed to skip Biology class. Then we continue with PE at the field. WITH HIS CLASS TOO! Wah~ The moment I've been waiting since the sun rises. My crush. My eternity crush is having the same PE period as I am.
I saw him! So good looking with his PE outfit. *As if everyone looks hideous with it. duhhh Aida.*
As I'm sitting on the bench with my friends, I see him walking with a girl. Well that literally crushes my heart. I went back to my class and cries all my heart out. I can't believe what I had just witnessed just now. My quiet and shy crush is talking sweetly to another girl?
I wish to go home that instance but I know I can't. I told a friend of mine what I saw just now and tears streams down my cheek directly after that. I just couldn't stop crying. You can imagine how hard for me to stay and act cool in class when all I wanted to do is just cry and cry. That day went on like thousand years for me. I just couldn't wait to go home and cry alone in my room. This is just too heartbreaking.
School finally over. I went home and starts to cry in the car. Continues when I get home. When I done washing up. I end up sleeping early that night. I need Mahirah. But she's not there because she's in Seseri. Thanks to Faten and Alya cause they comfort me. Alya called me and asked why did I cry in canteen? I continue to cry and told her the truth. I just couldn't stop. Arisha and Nadia is there too. I'm glad my friends were there to support me.
Starting from that day. From that date. I promise to myself to forget him. Keeps saying he's not worth it for me. But it's not easy. I keep on going back to our old sweet memoirs. 2009-2012 isn't that short. I can't simply move on. How irony when I used to tell people to move on and live their life but I seem can't do the same. I live on pathetic life for months. Until I couldn't take it and started to like him back. I don't care if I'll get hurt again. All I want is him. More likely I don't want to let go of the feelings. It is too precious for me. I don't want my heart to feel empty.
18.07.2012
My friends and I, we are in decorating squad. Tomorrow's a big day. I have to do the decorations. And finish all of them by tonight. Meaning we're going to spend the night at school for the first time. I was ecstatic about that. I am Yellow team. Him? He is in the Green team. His location is beside mine. We have to finish the decoration at the location given. Oh well, I am busy that day. I can't even see him. Maybe he's playing truant. LOL
That night, I go to the school with Nadia,Shawanie and Narissa. We are doing final touch on our mummy. Yes our theme that year is Pharaoh Time. When I am doing my mummy,guess what I see in front of me. A SWEET COUPLE~ Him and her.
Breakdown for the second time that night. Fool me.
21.11.2012
The day where I doubt myself... Is he the one I used to love? Do I really want to know him more? He's not the person I used to know in the beginning. No, I don't even want to know his real self. I want him to get back to the person I knew 3 years ago. The quiet and shy him. Not this person.
22.11.2012
I feel empty... My heart is empty. It's weird 'cause this kind of feeling never exist before in my heart. I stopped thinking bout him. I get know what's going on..
I... MOVED...ON...
25.11.2012
Today, I'm going to go for 5 days courses in HUSM. He's there. Well, I joined this programme because of him. Damn, I regret of going. But, thank god my girls are there with me.
I have to act like I still liked him. My girls still don't know that I moved on. Well, I kinda scared to tell them beforehand because I'm afraid that the feelings might come back. It's still new and all.
OH! GREAT! JUST GREAT! This courses divided us into group. He and I, we are groupmates.
26.11.2012
Second day, and we sit next to each other by COINCIDENT!
29.11.2012
The programme ends! YAY! At last. I had fun and all. :) And still had no feelings towards him. Hard times for me to handle. PHEW~
28.03.2013
The girls knew long ago about this move on thingy. But they're just not used to restrain themselves from telling updates about him to me. I just deaf my ears and act like I don't know a thing.
It's been a year. I still pitied myself cause of what had happened last year. The pain still lingers in my heart. The incident still flash in my mind. The moment of me, crying all by myself. It still hurts.
But hey! Someone is moved on! And she still fights for it. It's hard but a girl gotta do what a girl needs to do.
Till then... XOXO
p/s ;
EX CRUSH! I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE! ^^v
My day started really cheerful. My friends and I had photoshoot for our Bahasa Melayu association. I'm so happy because I can skip Biology class that morning. I had planned with my friends to extend the photoshoot time so that we would not be entering the class. I guess my intention is wrong from the starting of the day. We just finished Yaasin reading and then there's me being cheerful about skipping class.
The shoot went well. I was being hyper and ethusiastic than usual. I laughed here and there. I didn't even sense that something will go wrong after that. I teased my friends. I clearly don't know what's wrong with me that day.
I managed to skip Biology class. Then we continue with PE at the field. WITH HIS CLASS TOO! Wah~ The moment I've been waiting since the sun rises. My crush. My eternity crush is having the same PE period as I am.
I saw him! So good looking with his PE outfit. *As if everyone looks hideous with it. duhhh Aida.*
As I'm sitting on the bench with my friends, I see him walking with a girl. Well that literally crushes my heart. I went back to my class and cries all my heart out. I can't believe what I had just witnessed just now. My quiet and shy crush is talking sweetly to another girl?
I wish to go home that instance but I know I can't. I told a friend of mine what I saw just now and tears streams down my cheek directly after that. I just couldn't stop crying. You can imagine how hard for me to stay and act cool in class when all I wanted to do is just cry and cry. That day went on like thousand years for me. I just couldn't wait to go home and cry alone in my room. This is just too heartbreaking.
School finally over. I went home and starts to cry in the car. Continues when I get home. When I done washing up. I end up sleeping early that night. I need Mahirah. But she's not there because she's in Seseri. Thanks to Faten and Alya cause they comfort me. Alya called me and asked why did I cry in canteen? I continue to cry and told her the truth. I just couldn't stop. Arisha and Nadia is there too. I'm glad my friends were there to support me.
Starting from that day. From that date. I promise to myself to forget him. Keeps saying he's not worth it for me. But it's not easy. I keep on going back to our old sweet memoirs. 2009-2012 isn't that short. I can't simply move on. How irony when I used to tell people to move on and live their life but I seem can't do the same. I live on pathetic life for months. Until I couldn't take it and started to like him back. I don't care if I'll get hurt again. All I want is him. More likely I don't want to let go of the feelings. It is too precious for me. I don't want my heart to feel empty.
18.07.2012
My friends and I, we are in decorating squad. Tomorrow's a big day. I have to do the decorations. And finish all of them by tonight. Meaning we're going to spend the night at school for the first time. I was ecstatic about that. I am Yellow team. Him? He is in the Green team. His location is beside mine. We have to finish the decoration at the location given. Oh well, I am busy that day. I can't even see him. Maybe he's playing truant. LOL
That night, I go to the school with Nadia,Shawanie and Narissa. We are doing final touch on our mummy. Yes our theme that year is Pharaoh Time. When I am doing my mummy,guess what I see in front of me. A SWEET COUPLE~ Him and her.
Breakdown for the second time that night. Fool me.
21.11.2012
The day where I doubt myself... Is he the one I used to love? Do I really want to know him more? He's not the person I used to know in the beginning. No, I don't even want to know his real self. I want him to get back to the person I knew 3 years ago. The quiet and shy him. Not this person.
22.11.2012
I feel empty... My heart is empty. It's weird 'cause this kind of feeling never exist before in my heart. I stopped thinking bout him. I get know what's going on..
I... MOVED...ON...
25.11.2012
Today, I'm going to go for 5 days courses in HUSM. He's there. Well, I joined this programme because of him. Damn, I regret of going. But, thank god my girls are there with me.
I have to act like I still liked him. My girls still don't know that I moved on. Well, I kinda scared to tell them beforehand because I'm afraid that the feelings might come back. It's still new and all.
OH! GREAT! JUST GREAT! This courses divided us into group. He and I, we are groupmates.
26.11.2012
Second day, and we sit next to each other by COINCIDENT!
29.11.2012
The programme ends! YAY! At last. I had fun and all. :) And still had no feelings towards him. Hard times for me to handle. PHEW~
28.03.2013
The girls knew long ago about this move on thingy. But they're just not used to restrain themselves from telling updates about him to me. I just deaf my ears and act like I don't know a thing.
It's been a year. I still pitied myself cause of what had happened last year. The pain still lingers in my heart. The incident still flash in my mind. The moment of me, crying all by myself. It still hurts.
But hey! Someone is moved on! And she still fights for it. It's hard but a girl gotta do what a girl needs to do.
Till then... XOXO
p/s ;
EX CRUSH! I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE! ^^v
