next year is NO fun~ :'(

next year i'll be form 3.. and once again,i'll be facing with big examinations.. u know what.. since upsr,i don't like the feelings for getting nervous.. masa upsr dulu bulan puasa.. and ujian untuk hari pertama upsr is bm.. bm.. aku orang melayu.. bercakap bahasa melayu.. tapi satu,bahasa melayu aku sentiasa lemah.. aku pon taktaw. aku always confused in bm.. i don't even know why. bm aku that time always atas pagar. 80% jer.. but bi and math.. 95%. *sigh* and that day,after jawab kertas2 ujian.. kitorang check secara rambang (kertas bm 1 since kertas tu boleh simpan) then,aku dapati that aku ade banyak salah. owh~ that time aku rasa macam nk menangis je.. but i don't.. it feels depressing.. bile mak aku tanya.. aku macam *paused* then silently aku jawab 'takleh'. and i lived with nightmares since then.. but aku buat semayang sunat jugak.. aku takut.. aku takut tak dapat 5A.. yelah,aku anak bongsu and abang aku yang sebelum ni pon dapat 5A. takkan lah nk malukan family aku rite.. so   the big day has come.. aku tersangatlah nervous,nak2 lagi bila kitorang dapat tahu hanya 12 orang je dapat 5A (sekolah rendah aku sekolah luar bandar,so tak ramai yang dapat 5A) 

bila mak aku datang,aku terus pegi kat mak aku. kat situ pon da sayu da.. aku pon menangis! haha.. serius.. rasa sangat2 nervous and takut.. plus cuaca pon tak membantu.. (hujan lah pe lagi). that time everyone da tanya aku dapat berapa.. masyaAllah.. aku rasa seram sejuk okay.. tak bergurau.. disebabkan nama aku start with N dan dia start from kelas bawah (saya kelas first! haha) so,giliran aku lama sikit.. punya lah banyak reaksi aku tengok.. then.. nama budak2 class aku da disebut.. aku tunggu nama aku (kelas saya 44 orang.. =D memang ramai!) and there.. nama aku disebut.. disebabkan terlalu nervous.. aku terpele'ot kt wayar.. nasib tak jatuh taw.. haha.. then cover malu.. haha.. bile terima result,aku tengok.. 

• Bahasa Melayu 1 = A
• Bahasa Melayu 2 = A
• Bahasa Inggeris   = A
• Mathemathics      = A
• Sains                   = A

OMG!! that time memang tak terkata.. aku terus pandang kat tempat ibu bapa.. my mom's walking towards me and ask me with a signal.. aku dengan happynye tunjuk 5.. terus aku peluk mak aku.. and disebabkan terlalu terharu.. aku menangis AGAIN! haha.. so what.. i'm a crybaby.. hahah.. 

so,maksud aku.. aku taknak lalui semua nie.. sebab aku takut takut takut tak dapat 8A.. i never will like the nervous feeling.. huhu.

my masterpiece!

haha.. nak menunjuk sket.. this is some of my masterpiece (gmbr yang diedit2.. haha).. not that great!

these are some of the pics that i edited myself! well.. i was boring of doing nothing so i start editing the pics.. peace!! 

I hope you know~

I'm hurting.. I really hope you know that.. I am hurt because of you.. my one and only reason I had.

Next year is the last year we'll 'spend' our time to together.. I promise that I'll cherish every moment with you.. and I'll remember that when I'm not with you anymore. 

I don't know how I would live without you because you're like drug to me... every minute.. every second.. I have to see you.. if not,my heart will hurt.. not because of a major disease.. but because of you.

But,when it comes for me to confront you.. I am never ready to do it.. so do you.. It has been two years and we still remain the same.. like our first met.. my heart's thumping and I can feel yours too.. sometimes when we met I'll look at you.. and sometimes you look at me.. my friends said that everytime we met,you smiled at me? it is true? I hope so.

Well,I knew you never liked me. Proof? Easy. You'll go all mad when it comes things about me. You'll run with an upset look. You didn't like anything comes from me. I'm sorry. I didn't notice that it will affect you. I'm really sorry. It all started because of me right? I knew it. But seriously,I just want to be friends with you. I don't care if you like me or not.. but please? can't you just be my friend? I don't want much.. I just want you to treat like other girls. Talk with them.. when I text you or something you'll answer. That's all.

You know what.. I've been wanting you to talk to me. Just say 'hi' and I'll be the happiest girl alive. These past two years is nothing. Except that this year I see you everyday because of your class is beside my class. So if you want to go recess,you'll pass my class and I'll never fails to look at you. It's like a habit to me. When  you absent,I'll just don't have any mood. You're driving me crazy. 

And every introduction has an ending right? It's been 11 months schooling and we've just passed our final examinations. Now,we have to say goodbye. I'm afraid to say goodbye. I'm worried as time flies. I wonder you'll feel the same. I thought what will happen to me this 6 lonely weeks without you? And when it's time,you passed my class looking so happy. I know that you missed your family a lot since you're staying in hostel and you didn't get the chance to go back home last week because of the examinations? And there you go. I just say my goodbyes in my heart without anyone hearing. But,you give a beautiful scenery before we parted. I see.. you're so happy! You laugh and smile until I can't see you anymore because the building blocked me to see you. YES! I'm so happy because of you. Thanks for making my day. I'll always remember that moment.

p/s : sorry for the grammar mistakes! I'm not that great in English.

pics : The blond one is my fake husband,Kim Jonghyun and the highlight one is my boyfriend,Kim Kibum. :P

FACEBOOK!

facebooking.. then terjumpa satu status yang amat lah menyampah gila aku baca.. nk ditegur.. tapi.. aku takut lah pulak nanti orang tegur aku.. well people! please lah.. your love life.. no one wants to know.. maybe your friends know bout it.. please.. don't make people feel curious and wants to know bout yr love story while you don't wanna tell bout it.. jangan sampai orang stalk kau punya cerita cinta dan jual ke orang lain.. aku rasa kau taknak kan orang menjaja kisah kau tu..

dan tolong lah jangan mencarut kat facebook.. kau ingat kau sorang je boleh mencarut? aku pon boleh jugak lah.. cuma aku tak tunjuk jer.. aku tak taw ape yang kau rasa dengan mencarut nie.. aku tak rasa pon mak ayah kau ajar kau mencarut.. ape yang kau boleh ambil ngan mencarut ni? ade pengajaran or nilai murni ke ngan mencarut ni? aku tahu dah aku tak cantik.. tapi.. tolong lah cermin diri kau tu sebelum kata kat orang lain okay.. kau rasa kau hebat lah boleh tunjuk kat orang yang kau ni pandai mencarut?? aku pon curious gak.. 

and please!!! tolong lah letak gambar sendiri and nama betul kat facebook.. gambar muka saja pon takpe dah.. jangan lah letak gmbr artis.. menyampah aku ngan orang gini.. lepas tu yang tak seberapa tu.. tolong lah.. aku ni bukannya murah sangat sampaikan aku nk couple ngan kau.. kau ingat dengan kau mengorat aku.. aku cairlah?? HELLO?? sila bercakap dengan tangan saya!! orang macam nie.. mula2 lagi taw aku remove! aku tak hingin lah orang macam kau.. da lah tak kenal.. lepas tu mintak no phone.. kalau aku kasi n tak layan kau.. aku rasa kau mesti jaja no phone aku.. awak,saya ni tak bodoh.. saya ada otak lah nk fikir.. n boleh tak jangan guna bahasa yang geli geleman aku baca.. kau pelat ke? sampai mengeja pon tak betul.. agaknya lah kan.. masa kecik2 dulu.. mak bapak suh gi sekolah.. kau ponteng.. tulah pasal kau tak pandai mengeja kan? 

*nk luah perasaan sikit.. boleh??... boleh lah ye. ni pon blog aku.. nk baca. baca.. taknak baca.. takyah! aku tak paksa.. haha..*

ngeh3.. sesekali..

Aida Haniza

asal sume orang dalam rumah ni kata aku nk kurus.. aku tak simpan azam pon nk kurus.. saya terima dengan redha bahawa saya tak kurus..

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• You, Nurul Amiera, Miz Haqita, Syarafana Seri Buana and 4 others like this.
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    Mohd Fakhruddin Taharuddin Hmm.. Sy tau sy kurus... [via Celcom SMS]

    15 hours ago · 
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    Aida Haniza haha.. orang dalam umah asyik2 kata 'aida kan nk kurus.. tok payoh makan.. '

    15 hours ago · 
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    Noor Syuhadah you're normal sized. your bod is nice. okay? you're beautiful. believe. 

    15 hours ago ·  ·  1 person
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    Aida Haniza that's why i really love you!!

    15 hours ago · 
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    Mahirah Munif hahha. tah aida. my mum sendiri ckap..u bukan nye *the opposite*, meme body u kurus da.. haha, bngga saya.

    15 hours ago · 
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    Aida Haniza memang u da kurus pon dear.. ceh! aku puji ni.. haha.. but.. i'm not..

    15 hours ago · 
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    Mahirah Munif lah, ak oyak ko mu la mek. oyak ko ak plok!! mace2 la mu. eh betul eh,, buke ak sore oyak, my mum n sis oyak jugok. terbukti derr

    15 hours ago ·  ·  1 person
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    Aida Haniza bangga saya!! say my thanks to ur sis n mom!  
    
    serius mu nga syu terbaik! haha..  

• • kembang kempis hidung saya baca nie.. hahah..

diorang tersangatlah cute!! saya suka~ ;)

waaa~ yesterday was the best day evah~ kpop world attack!!! ;) i'm so so so happy :D. mula2 tengok se7en kt sbs.. gosh! he's so handsome.. i'm so in ♥ with him.. but too bad.. he already has a gf.. :'( then,change channel to kbs world.. MUSIC BANK!! it was special edition for near-ending year.. so.. all idol could perform there... jeongmal! i'm very happy!! cause my one n only love.. *for now that is* SHINee was there.. so this was their performance.. 

(muahahah..mereka tersangatlah hot dan hensem~.. ngeh3! ♥ ♥ ♥)

tibe-tibe.. ade kezutan.. key ♥ *my biased* performed 'magic girl' with kikwang (from beast) n kwanghee (from zea).. i called them triple K.. haha.. neomu kyopta!! tak tahu nk cakap ape sebab cute sangat.. rasa macam nk menjerit jer.. suka sangat sangat... ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ *my heart is full of love yesterday*

(cuteness overload!! ♥ ♥ ♥ hatiku dibuta oleh mereka! they're definitely guilty huahuahua~)

~let's just fall in love again~ ♥

* I want to tell you a story,but I don't know what the story is.. It feels like there's a ton of stories beyond my heart.. but. . . . it's LOCKED! what can I do? Oh~ I have to find a KEY.. I'd search up n down,above n below,right n left.. but.. there's nothing.. oh! wait! I see something.. I see you! Now,I have found it.. It's YOU! The key to my ♥.. You'd opened my heart.. And now,I already know what's the stories are about.. It's about us! Past,present and future.. I ♥ U *

i'm in love? ♥ ♥ ♥

-definitely not..

i'm happy? :) :) :)
-no.. i'm not happy.. 

my happy face?? 

i miss him? :'( :'( :'(

-yes! a lot.. but not now..

so? why did i write this kind of quote? ? ? ?

-cause i really.. really wanna tell a story n seriously.. i don't know what's the story.. in my heart it feels like it's gonna to explode if i don't tell the story.. but.. what the story is actually? then,i took a decision n wrote this n went to sleep.. haha..

I did it for love!

i'm addicted to boa's song.. i did it for love.. i really love the lyrics!!

this is the lyrics..

I did it for love (4x)

No signs for me,
I saw your game but yet
and still you got me
You touched the deepest part of me
You got my heart, it's jumping
I told you all of my secrets
Didn't see betrayal
One year, two months
And now it's over
Didn't think it would fail

Loving you is causing me to change
That it hurts so bad it don't feel the same
And now my friends are asking me, 'What did I do?'
I done hurt myself, over loving you


I I I I did it did it did it for love(4x)

I know I did you wrong
Please forgive me
Baby girl, I'm sorry
You know that you did me wrong
Why you crying, baby girl, I'm sorry
I know I did you wrong
Heavens knows I didn't mean to hurt nobody
You know that you did me wrong
Let me take the time to say I'm sorry

Loving you is causing me to change
And it hurts so bad it don't feel the same
And now my friends are asking me, 'What did I do?'
I done hurt myself, over loving you


I I I I did it did it did it for love(4x)


p/s: i skip the rap parts..

saya jumpe budak tecik!!

well.. hari jumaat lepas aku n family bergerak ke kedah for my sedara's wedding (i didn't even know her,what's her face like.. just taw sedara jer.. haha.. jahil kan aku nie??) actually,the main purpose is to see balqis.. because kitorang leh je gi hari sabtu sebab wedding tu hari ahad.. so,kitorang singgah jitra dulu.. jumpe budak tecik tu! GOSH! she's so cute! i think i fell in love with her.. haha..

masa lawat dia.. bukan main seronok agi dia.. and aku pon. haha.. i taught her to call me 'ucu' *not to expect that she'll call me that so fast* i just taught her once.. and second thing i know.. when she looked at my photo in my phone..*she loves to play with phone.. uhh... kids nowadays!* and she pointed her finger to the photo then me.. n said 'cu~' haha.. so cute!!

then,when we're about to leave.. aku acah nk bawak dia ikut gi perlis *my sis waited for us there coz we'll stay at the homestay she booked* and suh dia 'babai' kat mama n bak dia.. terus dia 'babai'.. pas aku kasi ah balik kat mama dia.. terus menangis.. kuat lak tuh.. haiyo..so.. aku pon dukung lah dia balik.. err.. she stopped crying rite away.. good girl*

jadi aku n yus bawak lah dia berjalan naik kete se round kt taman perumahan dia.. yus buat muka lawak kt dia.. gelak tak berhenti2.. *aku pon join sekali.. haha* lepas bawak dia berjalan se round kitorang pon bertolak ke perlis.. wow~ penat.. sampai malam.. then aku tido kt umah asyah.. around 12 midnight gtu.. pastu.. sedap2 tido.. pergh!! gastric datang.. sakit hati aku.. takleh nk tido.. lebih kurang sejam ah gak tak tido.. pastu aku kunci jam.. jam berbunyi~ aku punye lah kejut kakak aku *sebab dia bukan orang yg bangun awal*.. tapi aku xbangun2 pon.. haha.. sampailah mak tepon aku.. baru lah aku bangun.. huhu..

then.. bertolak ke homestay.. mandi,makan n duduk beberapa jam kt sane sebelum bertolak ke sungai petani.. sebelum tu makan kt fatin's corner.. gile cendol pulut dia best! ~maksukamaksuka~ then bertolak ke sungai petani.. well.. i had some fun.. sebab bodin *my cousin* is so lawak gile nk mampus.. n gile!! layan beb dalam kete.. lagu jiwang2 jer.. haha. teringat kenangan balik from school trip.. otw balik pakcik driver bus bukak lagu jiwang '90an derr.. karaoke ah kitorang.. budak2 laki siap lambai tangan kt belakang.. gile ke ape? okay dah.. pastu lama2 aku mengantuk.. da ah hujan.. lagi syok! sekali asyah tak bagi tido.. hampeh.. sakit hati.. kene sengkang mata.. huhu.. dalam sejam gtu sampai homestay sungai petani. okay! luas.. besau... i loike! pastu tunggu akis! haha.. dia pon stay kt homestay same.. mak lagi suke..

then malam.. akis da sampai.. baru bangun from tido.. so still mamai.. tapi bile dah kenal bukan main serlak.. here's some language that i learnt from her..

1. naknok = nak
2. nanak = taknak
3. nak tacik! = nak nasik!
4. bak = abah
5. mommom = mama
6. nenek = susu
7. yayaya = lalala *her fav song from elmo's world*
8. ta = umbrella
9. cat = kucing n adik2 beradik kucing termasuk singa
10. ball = bola *lah kan*

so.. sunday has come.. kitorang kene balik hari ahad cz yus nk guna kete hari selasa.. ingat nk balik hari isnin.. tapi.. ape kan daya.. aku malas nk duk kt utara lama2.. plus tempat kenduri dkt ngan highway nk balik kelantan.. huhu.. so.. balik lah.. *with wearing kurung* sungguh lah tak sedap! huhu.. sampai2 je rumah tgk star king *i missed that show last week eventhough it shows two times replay.. duhh*